MIA

Hey peeps,
term test is around the corner of my eyes.
i guess i wont be blogging for this period of time.
so long~

woke up at 8.30am today..
tired.
must be cause of the trg last night..
hehe
so decided not to go for lecture since my dad not driving me to sch..
so sure late.
and very late...
and after that got 5 hrs of break..
no proj meeting..
so yup.
made a great decision to stay at home and do research work~
completed commskill online, Mkg research, some of FnB, some gaming..
then chiong to sch for french..
DIE LA!
cant really catch up with lesson..
got to work harder for that le.. haha
thats all!
online gaming now!!

that is how debbie yam wei guang started her conversation with me...

debbie (: says:
kau
debbie (: says:
kua**
debbie (: says:
HAHAH

grrrr... haha, yam ah! buy me something back from thai ah! i demand!

well, its going 24hrs since my hamster ran out of the cage due to me opening the door without closing, again.
can i file a report to SPCA?
and and!
how cute...
i placed a snack on the floor while playing computer,
she came out,
ate,
and left.

wahahaha~
just came back from trg and its great!
had sch before that.
at 12pm and end at 2.
so i reached school at 12,
left at 1.45.
the lesson was great.
manage to catch up with the topic and did pretty well for the tutorial questions...
home-d till 6.15 and dashed out of hse to attend trg...
attendance: 6 (joleen, mas, eunice, chenhui and a new girl from SAJC whom i still dont know how to spell her name yet=X)
so today i did shooting 1st..
then when chenhui changed into attire le i played passing with her..
woah... her passing was good and fast.
got to really run to get the ball..
but still manage to pass some nice one.
then was 3v3 match
me, joleen and new girl.
mas,eunice and chenhui.
mas that grp got many great passes due to their good positioning..
my grp was good too..
cause we are noisy..
fine, its only me..
haha.
so i scored a goal!
own goal.....
lalala~ forget that part.. erm...
ran relatively much today..
chiong at full speed.
guess i got the i-wanna-run-away-from-reality-kind-of mood.
ate at 'azeera' after trg..
then home-d.


yawn...
better slp early today..
got lecture in the morning at 9am...
gosh, i am really tired after the trg.


wooooooosh!
gone with the wind..............
opps, there's no wind in the room..
salut~

nope, why am i doing all this.
ha,
i am really stupid and dumb.

i should be happy.

at least i learned a good lesson today.

learnt that to others,
i am just someone whom cant be counted on when somebody need someone whom she/he can trust.

learnt that it nv pays to be good.




great, i should be happy.

=)

fuck,
yup that right.
i am no better in words.


but i dont think i should be bringing this up again.
but this shall be the last.

if you think that my mood on mon was OK in the morning till afternoon, you are wrong. cause since the day before and before and before, i nv was happy.

if you think that i treat my life too lightly, yes. cause i can tell by the age of 30 plus, i will be down with diseases and illness. no doubt. wannna bet?

if you think that you cant see us like before anymore, so be it. cause i cant too.

if you think that i need her more than you, so be it. cause i dnt believe in that before. and now, i believe i shld be dependent of myself.

if you think that we actually have finish cycling and eating dinner then call you after that, so be it. cause the fact is that at the point of time she doesnt even know i called you and we are not done with our cycling and thats not our dinner. the cycling part, its been our decision since we are standing outside TP.

and lastly, that is no fight...
just some misunderstanding..
misunderstanding for a long long time...

if you think you have done your part by explaining in your blog,
you are wrong again.



cause by blogging it in the 1st place was nv right.


debbie, lijuan, hueyyun, dont worry.. i will be just fine...

i cant believe how far this is going.
1st, family.
next, relationship.
then, friends.
if you think that all we was out of casual and just to make you mad/sad/angry, then think again.
when i say i wanna suicide. i mean it.
you have no idea eh?
life sounds really meaningless to me AT THAT POINT of time.
try.
wanting to go home but decided to stay in school because my oh-so-great friends asked me to stay on and we can have dinner together.
oh great.
waited.
and to think that i was in the study room alone.
after that huge quarrel with someone else.
you mean only YOU feel the loneliness?
then the pain i am suffering after the meal...
i told myself...
its alright... its nothing... after that i will have a lovely meal with my 2 precious friends and the day will be just fine.
woah?
what turns out after that?
you turned your back and left without leaving a word.
furious.
but thinking that you cant neglect your other circle of friends,
lets just cool down a little.
i wanna relax i wanna forget about the day.
suggestion came up and wheee lets go for cycling!
later on, i called you out of concern...
not expecting a blog entry of me eating and enjoying life and saying how i misplaced your trust.


friend, i never expect that to come out from you.
to me...


its not important anymore.

Soccer brightens up my life!

I'm back from blogging..
the previous few days i was busy/lazy/reluctant.

i was back from soccer trg a few hours ago.
trg was great.
it has always been great.
attended 3 trgs after the field was offical 'better looking'

1st was tiring but enriching. let me recall....
-3 rds for warm-up.
-3v3 mini match.
-1 rd for warm-down.

2nd trg was even better...
-passing.
-more passing..
-more passing with monkeys...
-dribblings and sprintings.
-tried shooting into this small area and failure will lead to 15 pumping. and yes, i did. fail.

3rd trg which is today... wow......
-2 rds for warm-up
-controlling of ball with inside foot, outside foot, left foot, right foot. i look like an idiot/retarded.
-tried shooting ONE ball from outside the penalty box and it went in. BRAVO~
-2 to a ball, pass with varies part of the body. i thinks yuting hate me for always kicking the ball to her direction(and to her) when my partner is Joleen....
-skills on teamwork. me and joleen is developing the 默契 liao.. GOOD~
-4v4 match. me, jo, pam, yuting and nana one grp.. we WON!
---1st goal: jo pass to me, i pass to pam, pam kick it far and dash towards it and with a kick, SCORE~
---2nd goal: yaya's goal scored. i forgot how =X
---3rd goal: pam pass to jo, jo dribble up, got tackle but continue the run, looked up and see the striking kua, give a hard pass and i was there to recieve, got tackle by mas, she cleared the ball to my leg, i kick it forward, jo was there, she whacked it in =)

THATS HOW MUCH FUN I HAVE RECIEVED FROM GOING TO TRG...
all the worries and agony i have kept for as long as i have noticed the rising of my temper, soccer kept everything down and brightens up my day/night very well. Motivated to do well for this semester, never will i let my parents down again. I shall keep my temper down from now on then...

well, let begone be bygone... or is it bygone be begone??
it doesnt matter, cause a change is the only constant in life and why am i saying all this?
i should be sleeping or doing project........
i done my tutorial for tmr liao...
so i shld be slping....
nights....

Whats wrong with me today?
am i too hard to be understood?
or is it just my imagination?
i just couldnt understand why....
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