i cant believe how far this is going.
1st, family.
next, relationship.
then, friends.
if you think that all we was out of casual and just to make you mad/sad/angry, then think again.
when i say i wanna suicide. i mean it.
you have no idea eh?
life sounds really meaningless to me AT THAT POINT of time.
try.
wanting to go home but decided to stay in school because my oh-so-great friends asked me to stay on and we can have dinner together.
oh great.
waited.
and to think that i was in the study room alone.
after that huge quarrel with someone else.
you mean only YOU feel the loneliness?
then the pain i am suffering after the meal...
i told myself...
its alright... its nothing... after that i will have a lovely meal with my 2 precious friends and the day will be just fine.
woah?
what turns out after that?
you turned your back and left without leaving a word.
furious.
but thinking that you cant neglect your other circle of friends,
lets just cool down a little.
i wanna relax i wanna forget about the day.
suggestion came up and wheee lets go for cycling!
later on, i called you out of concern...
not expecting a blog entry of me eating and enjoying life and saying how i misplaced your trust.


friend, i never expect that to come out from you.
to me...


its not important anymore.